It's been a while. How is youtube? What about life for you?
So, there might be a handful of people around here who actually wonder why my wall is empty. Well, first, let's look at some important dates:
October 18, 2013: I join Enjin because I want to get in better touch with the Conwy community.
September 19, 2014: I eventually get to work for Conwy.
November 25, 2015: I finally find myself demoted from my position due to disagreements with Rockslide about how to deal with the server's economical issues.
May 17, 2016: Rockslide decides to close Conwy down.
As you can see, the end of my time around here on Enjin really should have been at the time of November 2015. By then, I had had my time and had done what I was supposed to do around here. Lingering on though, May 2016 really should have been my final goodbye.
I really don't know what happened after that. For some reason, the concept of "my wall" started coming up, and I took more and more of an interest with sharing stuff I simply found to be interesting, rather than talking about matters related to Conwy.
One thing that is worth mentioning, is just how important I consider my time on Conwy to have been, in terms of identity. After all those years, I still consider being a Conwyan to be the most important social group I've ever been a part of. My work for Conwy was presumably the most important thing I'll ever get to do in my life. I am equally shocked every time when I talk to former members of the community who admit that they only saw their time there as a hobby.
As happy as I am to see that someone would take an interest in what I share, I am still equally surprised every time I realize that they didn't do it because they knew me as "ChatMod+ fr15827". The only real reason I feel confident enough to not just refer to myself as a "random" has been because of Rockslide. He made me into who I am today, and aside from my family, he is presumably the one person who has influenced me the most overall.
With that being said though, it's ironic how looking back at this "golden era", all I can really see is me writing stuff that I would feel awkward about, mostly due to a lack of grammar and quality.
If we return to the present day, I can as always say that I don't like attention for the sake of attention. When someone "likes" or gives a comment to something I post, I don't want them to do it unless they genuinely find it funny or interesting. I really despise superficiality, but the internet sadly has a tendency to encourage just that.
But what does that have to do with this site in particular?
Well, even though low-quality content is to be found in most places, it's admittedly quite silly how someone can randomly post "i like ice cream lol" and get way more responses to that, than I get from sharing stuff that's actually interesting. Yes, I am well aware of that "interesting" is a subjective term, but you should be able to figure out what I mean.
Again, I don't exactly care about attention for the sake of attention in itself, but in cases like this, it's still a pretty good measurement of things. And quite frankly, it's a sign that the overall quality of Enjin has decreased a lot over the past few years, something which others have said as well.
Over time, I've become more and more unsatisfied with the issues mentioned above, and finally, I realize that Enjin might not be the right place for me to thrive online in the future. This wall has become way too central in my life. At this point, it actually feels like my digital home, with any other sites being its arms. From an objective perspective, it's quite silly how I can view something like Skype, Discord or YouTube as mere support sites for Enjin. It should be the other way around.
